Suicide Note

Yes, this is my suicide note. Now wait a minute!!! Don’t get all crazy on me!!! Don't get your panties in a bunch!!! I’m not going to off myself anytime soon. I want to live for many more years, just hear me out first... Yesterday on NPR I was listening to State of Nevada and the topic revolved around (at least the segment I heard) the rise in senior citizen murder/suicides. The reason was because the elders in question felt that they were becoming a burden and were financially broke and with failing health. One caller was freaking out saying how we need to "...stop them from committing such things" I am paraphrasing and she was talking about an older person specifically trying to commit suicide. My first thought was, "Who the fuck are you to tell someone that has lived out almost all of their life how they can and cannot end it!?!?" You see, I have always had an old age suicide plan. I have made no secret that at some point when I become much older and my health begins to really fail and someone else is giving their own life to support me, it was time for me to go. I would pack a small nap sack and head off into some wilderness enjoying the earth one last time. Whether I made it one mile or a thousand miles didn’t matter, I would end it on my terms being as self sufficient as I could possibly be. Many people chuckled at me when I told them this through the years but it’s one of the few things in my screwed up mind that I have been sure about. So, here it is, all official up on the internet for everyone to see. When I’m much older (preferably close to or over one hundred) and my mind and/or body begin to fail I am going to go for a long walk that I never intend to come back from. I'm going to enjoy the sky and the stars and the wind in my face one last time. My most important value in my own life is the personal rights of the individual and respect for those rights. To stop me and label me unfit will surely make me incredibly unhappy and sink me into another depression, make me a burden on society and will infringe on my personal values. If you choose to stop me, fuck you in advance. Hopefully, when I’m older, there will be some wilderness left to go walking in.